Life has changed drastically in the Uebel household over the past few weeks. And I'm not exactly sure why, well ok maybe it's due to this cute little face :).
Last night over dinner I told Nic it had been a rough day. You see I have this little problem called worry, especially when it comes to finances. And yesterday when all the hospital bills and insurance premiums started rolling in I started to panic. As I saw numbers flashing before my eyes, I started to hate the fact that everything costs money. I have this list that seems to be constantly growing of things I want but unfortunately as mentioned before cost money.
Like the iPhone that Verizon is about to release, I mean I've been waiting FOREVER for it so shouldn't I be able to get it after being soooo patient for so long? Or a newer car, I know it's hard to believe but 1996 was a long time ago and notice I only said newer not new? Reality bit me in the butt last night, hard. I am responsible for this new little life now, whom I love very much don't get me wrong, but I can't do everything I used to do anymore and I can't have everything I want either. That's a hard pill to swallow. I told Nic, "It's like I'm being forced to grow up only I thought I had already done that."
And here's where Kroger comes in (in case you're wondering). After dinner Nic volunteered to stay home with the sleeping baby so I could have some time to myself, at Kroger of all places. An important thing to note here is that I haven't been to Kroger in over a month and because all of my attention has been dedicated to Sadie lately I've forgotten that Thursday nights at a college town Kroger are for beer runs.
So the place is dead except for the beer cave and checkout stations. I'm still walking around humming "It's the Hard-Knock Life " in my head and declaring it my theme song my entire Kroger visit. So I pay for my groceries and head out the door. It was freezing last night so I pull my cart over to put on some gloves and a cute college girl walks past me toting a 24 pack of Bud Light. And that's when I realize it- I'm probably only five years older than her but there is a world of difference between the two of us, in fact that seems like a lifetime ago to me(not that I made beer runs in college but you get the point). And what's even better is that's ok- I love my life now, I wouldn't trade anything to go back to that time, even if that means not getting everything I ever wanted and giving up a few things along the way.
There is always joy in our lives, sometimes to quote Disney's The Princess and the Frog, "we just have to dig a little deeper" to find it. Thank you God for the many blessings in my life!