"Break my heart for what breaks Yours"- it's playing on my computer as I'm typing this blog right now. I've had this line from the song Hosanna stuck in my head for some time now and despite the fact that I've heard this particular song more times than I can count on my fingers and toes, I'm never not moved by these particular lyrics.
My prayer for the past few days has been that God would help me to see others the way he does, even "the others" who tend to frustrate the snot out of me sometimes. After reading Matthew 5:46-48, where Jesus says if you just love the people who love you, what makes you any different than the tax collectors or the pagans, I was inspired to start praying for my "enemies." Now just to be perfectly clear here, I don't really believe I have any "enemies" in the sense of people who have made it their life's goal to get me. But I do have people I come into contact with in my life that sometimes frustrate me (I'm not naive here either, I'm sure I frustrate them at times too). Anyways instead of whining and complaining to God about how innocent little me has been wronged, I've recently felt God calling me to pray for these people. Now I can't say I'm at a point where my heart is completely softened and all my prayers are pure and righteous but hey everybody has to start somewhere right?
So for now I'm asking God to break my heart for his children and awaken me to my own stupid selfishness. And the next time I start to feel myself getting annoyed at the insurance woman on the other side of the phone, I pray that I'll have a heart more like Him for her. I'll never know about the fight she had with her husband last night or the cancer diagnosis she got last week but He does and it's my job to be His light in this world.